the first da without you.
i wonder how life is gonna be. i'm scared to step out. i'm too in my comfort zone. it feels like my whole world has been revolving around you. you're like a dream come true to me.
you're the first person i think of when i wanna go food tasting. you're the first person i think of when i wanna just go out and hang around. you're the one who can lift my day up and put my day down. you're the one who makes me grin from ear to ear. you're the one who takes all my shit and still embrace me with love. you're the one who never fails to make me laugh non stop and think that "omg why you so cute i can't stop loving you"
i want to stay in your heart and arms forever.
can i turn back time ?
smile (:
3:31 PM
it's over. how i wanted to save it. how i wanted it to last forever.
i feel disappointed. i feel sad. i feel lost. i feel emptiness. and most of all i feel pain.
i know that the next time i look into your eyes. i'll see a friend who can only be there. not someone you look forward to seeing every weekend. everyday. someone you wanna talk to all the time with endless topics. someone you wanna do fun things together with. someone you can spend everyday every min and every hour with.
he's that someone to me.
but sadly. i'm not that someone to him.
smile (:
8:47 PM
i feel this sense of loss once again.
i hate it when you start thinking too far or too much. i hate it when it always comes back within weeks. i hate it when you pop that kinda question. it never lasts.
how i wish time could stop. when we were both happy together.
can you please stop thinking?
i'm shaking with fear. all over again.
smile (:
9:37 PM
i hate being looked down upon. damnit i still haven't got over yesterday's project meeting. if only i can be a bit smarter. ): life is never fair isn't it.
i vow to work hard ! (hope i do it pls)
back to accounting.
p.s: it's funny how this used to be my main blog while lj was my secret blog and now this has become my secret blog. haha. how can i blog openly bout my opinions w/o getting misunderstood ?!
smile (:
4:32 PM
OH MY ! surprisingly i still remember the password to blogger. everyone feels that i shouldn't have done that. we shouldn't be together again. everyone is on my side but why nobody is on his ?
why isn't anyone really happy for us ? issit cause it happened one too many times ? i'm just as confused. but i guess we really want this to work. i'm gonna give it a last try. i hope. nobody understands the way i really feel about him. and i bet if it's some other girls. really they'll just take any chance thrown at them. maybe i'm someone like that. i just can't let go knowing that there's still love between us.
if he found someone new and all okay i accept but not like this. i hate when people think badly of us. maybe next time by shutting up would be good. don't spread the news so fast. and make a big fuss. it's a note to self.
smile (:
12:26 PM
I'M MOVING OVER TO LJ !
like finally. lol. i love blogspot but now lj seems more familiar.
click
here for my lj kay ?!
smile (:
1:31 AM
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WENG ! (21st nov)
anyway i was the last to wish him. on purpose though cause i remembered last year he "scolded" me cause i dint wish him. I DINT EVEN KNOW BACK THEN ! lol.
time check: 12:06
what am i still doing online at this hour when i have a meeting tmr at 10am. it's because.. i have to type out my 8 page report for the judges to read on wednesday ! not sure if they'll read though but i'm told to prepare it.
judging on wednesday. i'm really scared. i'm afraid that i will not get good grades. i'm considering being a teacher. LOL. it's just a sudden thought after weekiat mentioned it briefly. okay i should stop thinking and do my report.
i'm only at abstract ! GOODBYE ALL!
smile (:
12:05 AM
